I broke my treadmill just over a week ago and went a little crazy. it was like my mojo just disappeared completely. This also coincided with my scale coming to a stall and I lost it. With the end of the challenge coming up I just wanted to disappear, but I don't want to balloon up again and I most definitely will if I just leave myself to my own devices.
So what now? I've said before that I can deal with the scales ups and downs, and that even though I hate the ups, it's a good motivational tool for me. I like to see progress. All this is true, except recently I've been feeling like that scale is starting to define me, and that's not a healthy place to be. If it's going down then it's great, it makes me happy, blips I think about and it's not great, but stalls? Oh the stalls. They send me out of my mind, I don't see the point if I'm not seeing the progress, it's a bit insane as I know rationally that every bit of progress I see won;t be in weight so I should chill already. I'm so not chill.
Anyway, what's the point of my ramblings? This is the last week of the challenge, so I'll try and make it end with a bang rather than a whimper. Dad went and looked at the treadmill (it had cut out while I was using it and started making this horrible groaning sound) and couldn't find anything wrong with it now, so I'll give it a try and hope it has magically healed itself.
In mid-September-ish I'll (We'll?) be starting a new challenge (you'll all welcome to join, I'll be posting details closer to the start). In the 3-4 weeks in between I'm going to try sticking to things without the scale. I don't know if it will work better for me or not, it'll be my little experiment before the challenge proper. I'll have look at how it's gone before the new one starts and decide where I want to go from there.